jaded

Insensitive, that's what I am
From the eyes that embraces me dearly

Incapable, Inconsistent, Untrustworthy
Strong adjectives
With a hint of truth in it
Yes, I admit... I admit!

Fumbling fool.
Remorseful soul.
Repentant heart.

That's also true.

But what does it mean
If the heart that embraced me
If the presence that tried dearly
... is jaded?

I walk with the weight of nothingness.

God, guide me through this process of being alone
... alone with You.